Holy rolly coaster. After being entertained by Franz Ferdinand a week ago, last Saturday my fan-girlish side has found the ultimate happiness again. I met Matt Tong from the band Bloc Party and took a picture with him! This means a lot to me since he’s my favourite drummer currently :) He came here not to play drum though, he was DJ-ing. To be honest, DJ stuffs don’t really attract me, but it’s Matt Tong! How could I miss it?! And my special thanks go to Bunga *hugs* She’s the one who told me that Matt’s going to play in Jakarta although she herself couldn’t watch it.

The real Matt was much more gorgeous than in the pics. He’s tall (a bit lanky) and wore a black Lacoste polo shirt (being tucked in) and creme trousers. Geeky but still looks awesome for my eyes xD. He’s also very nice. He didn’t mind at all when my sis asked him to take another picture since he didn’t show up in the first one, while his bodyguard already forced him to go. And he smiled a loooottt, I could have collapsed there xD (hyperbolic, I know). I didn’t see all of his DJ set since it was kinda boring (sorry, darling Matt!) but my sis managed to take some good pics which you can see on my Facebook. But this picture is the winner :D!


It’s too bad you can’t see his right hand on my shoulder *grins*

Okay, this post is so fan-girling. I can’t hellllp it, I am really sorry!

Franz Ferdinand. A band that has inspired me to do good things, a band that teaches me that it is okay to be a geek. They tell me that brain and fun could actually work together. I have to say that these four Glaswegians have influenced my life, along with Manic Street Preachers and Suede. And last nite, I got this very precious opportunity to watch them live at Playground Festival. They were amazing, I almost cried for this bliss.

Playground Festival is actually a dance festival held by one of the biggest clubs in Jakarta. Yet they also invited some rock bands to play. From Indonesia, there were The SIGIT (a heavy 70s rock, awesome but not my cup of tea), CUTS (two female fronted band, sexy and cute at the same time), and Agrikulture (my fav from the three, they really knew how to make people dance!). I also watched the DJ set by Peter Hook. Yup, that bassist of New Order. The living legend himself. I still can’t believe that the Mancunian god was in front of me!

However, it was Franz Ferdinand that really made my night. Their performance was energic, spiritful and inspiring! I was blown away and couldn’t stop singing during all songs. I got a position right in front of the stage (hahaha, I had been in that spot since eight o’ clock while Franz played at eleven xD). Alex Kapranos singing in front of me, it still seems surreal for me. Overall, the whole performance still seems surreal for me. I finally could watch them live!

The gig was opened by Michael, a very danceable song, and ended with Lucid Dreams, heavily extended with dance parts. Alex may not be the most attractive frontman onstage, however, he was charismatic and sang well. Okay, this fan-girlish part of me must mention this: for his age, Mr. Kapranos still looks super sexy. I adore this guy so much. And Mr. Nick McCarthy? The word ‘jig’ was created for this lad! The way he moved his body while playing guitar was just HOT. Funnily, he dressed like an office worker but still managed to look a rock star. He’s also a bit tiny but gotta say that he’s handsome! Nick sang two songs last nite: Tell Her Tonight and Van Tango. Unfortunately I couldn’t meet him so I couldn’t say something about eveningjune, his biggest fan. While Bob Hardy was very cool onstage. Oh well, that’s Bob. Paul Thompson was the star! He banged the drums amazingly. He’s just, wow. The master of the beat! (Too many exclamations in this entry, lol, I cannot help it)

The highlight of the gig was when the four of them played drum together before the encore. It was brilliant, thankfully my sis managed to record the moment. They didn’t play The Fallen and Twilight Omens though. Too bad, those two songs are my favourites. But all in all, the whole performance was super fantastic. Thank you thank you, Franz Ferdinand, for giving me one of the best nights ever.

( the gig, captured by my sis )

Hey it’s already November! It means that two more months to 2010! Wow, time does run really fast, doesn’t it? November also means that my students will face their midterm tests. I’m not the one who’s going to do the questions yet I also feel tense -_-. I’m afraid that they still don’t understand the materials that I have given. As we all know, some of Indonesian people can be really passive. Perhaps they still don’t really get the material, but they’re afraid to raise any questions. Well, I pray that all of my students can do their midterm tests well. Amen!

Oh, I’m going to have a holiday in December with my sis and my mom. This will be my first travel abroad so I’m nervous and excited at the same time. Cannot wait for it!

( And here are the new things in my life )

Yesterday, I had a precious moment with a special friend. We talked a lot over a cup of coffee and shared many things, from our personal affairs (shouldn’t be mentioned here hahaha) to topics like linguistics and English grammar. I am just really happy to know how we have the mutual feeling.
She means so much to me, and I am glad that she also thinks the same way. We’ve been through many things in the last three years, the ups and downs. I guess it has made us think more about the meaning of friendship, and now we value each other and the beloved people around us more. The people who really care about you without having to brag it out.

We also had a discussion about how we have learned many lesson this year. I guess in our 25th year of life, God has given us a chance to develop into a better person. We have learned something new about our lives :).

This entry cannot really describe how I feel really grateful for having her in my life. Just so you know my dearest friend, you mean so much to me *hugs*.

How’s everyone here in LJ? I hope everything’s good. I’ve been generally good too, a bit busy with teaching of course. I just realized that teaching isn’t just coming to class to deliver the material. But it also involves preparing the right material (so the students won’t get bored), making quizzes and tests, and emotionally dealing with students. In general, my students are nice, but there’s one student that I need to be aware of. He’s on the verge of being impolite. If he starts acting up again, I’ll make him sure that I am the one in charge in the class.

Music: I can’t wait to listen to The Bravery’s new album! I’m such a Bravery’s whore, for your info xD. I have listened to two tracks, Slow Poison and Hatefuck and I love them both! Their new album Stir The Blood will be released next month. I hope it’ll be here in Indonesia as soon as possible.

Film: Just saw The Secret of Moonacre and I love it, especially the costumes. The dresses worn by Dakota Blue Richards are so pretty I’d like to wear them! Also, Ioan Gruffud playing as Dakota’s uncle is oh so scrumptious *grin*. I have this particular interest over Welsh guys, you know. Another thing that attracts me is the guy who plays Robin de Noir. I’d never seen him before, but he’s kinda cute. His costume is also great, the combo of Clockwork Orange, glam rock and Cillian Murphy’s hair in Breakfast on Pluto. As a fantasy film, I think it’s okay. 3 of 5 stars.

Book:I have a personal target to read 50 books this year, and so far I have read 49 books! Hip hip hooray! Currently I am reading Black Book by Orhan Pamuk. Hopefully it’ll be my 50th book :).

( It hurts but I have to )

Since I have nothing important or major to write, let me just write down my current favourite list. Yaiyy, making list is always fun for me!

( Check the list here )

Sorry for the lack of update. I’ve been pretty busy with the teaching thing so I couldn’t be online through my laptop. Teaching has been well, and my radar has told me which students I should be aware of. I guess I should be stricter or else they’ll act up and rudely. Actually I don’t like being angry with my students (or with any other else) ‘cos it takes a lot of energy and it doesn’t feel good. However, I really do think that sometimes I need to do for the sake of learning process itself.

Just read Istanbul by Orhan Pamuk and oh how I love it (check my Goodreads for the full review)! I wanna go to that city! This memoir is written passionately, and it’s a bittersweet love song composed by one of the best living writers in the world. Salute to you, Mr. Pamuk. Meanwhile, I am reading Mary Poppins and enjoying it. Mary has such cranky attitude, and that makes her look cute :). My sis, who just came home from Singapore, also brought home tons of books, mostly are fantasy and children’s books. That makes my reading list longer: Conrad’s Fate by Diana Wynne Jones and Mariah Mundi by G.P. Taylor. So far I have read 44 books, and it means six more to go to achieve 50 books this year! Wish me luck!

I also have to say that this week has been emotionally hard for me. I am having problems with a friend, and it leaves a deep cut. But that doesn’t really matter compared to the earthquake that shook Padang and Jambi. Sending my prayer and strength to all victims.

For those of you celebrating it: Selamat Hari Raya Idul Fitri ~ Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin. I hope you all had a wonderful Idul Fitri with your beloved people, and may the spirit of Ramadhan stay with us!

My Lebaran was great! My aunts and uncles and cousins came to my house, and the highlight was when my cousin brought her ten-month-old baby :) Welcome to the family, dearest Andika! It seems that every year my cousin comes up with her/his baby. I wonder when my turn will be :D Also, Lebaran is about super feast like ketupat, opor, sambel goreng ati and others. Of course I ate them all harharhar, but I tried not to eat too much sweets since *looking at my tummy*, I have the potential to gain more weight -_-. I also got a chance to meet a best friend. He came home from Dubai and before leaving for Magelang, he wanted to see my sis and I. It’s always nice hanging out with him, and with that, my Lebaran became more special. Being surrounded by people who have special place in your heart is a bliss.

But I missed Warkop DKI’s films this year, too bad :D. It’s already like a tradition, hahaha.

I envy my sis who’s going to Singapore this Thursday with her friends, meh. She’s going to see the F1 race. Meanwhile, I don’t have any particular plan this holiday. Well, I will just hang out with Sherien this Wednesday. Free coffee from a bestie? What else do you want? Another plan is I want to finish two books, Charles Dickens by G.K. Chesterton and The Black Book by Orhan Pamuk. And, I just bought BBC’s Sense and Sensibility. So I might spend my cold cold nights drooling at Dominic Cooper as Willoughby. Okay then, enough for my ramblings. I hope you guys enjoy the rest of the holiday!

I'll see you guys in November? Cannot wait! *bouncy*

So how was my first week of teaching? Thank God it went well :) Surprisingly, I wasn’t as nervous as I had thought before. Teaching in high school and English course has given me confidence! As I have written before, besides teaching Literary Criticism, I am also given the responsibility to teach English for non-English literature students. This session is harder, I think, since there are around 50 students in one class o_O. But I think generally I did well in controlling the class situation. I do hope this term I will keep on doing great and my students will be smarter every single week :). However, I feel that I have to surpress this Humbert Humbert side of me since there are many good-looking students in my classes *ahem*.

Next week, I think I’m gonna tell the Literary Criticism students to watch a film that brings out the feminist values/issues. Any idea? I won’t tell them yet to deconstruct the ideas in the film (since it is kinda too hard for undergraduate students). If they can raise the issues up, it’s already enough in this second meeting.

Oh, I also got a sweet surprise. A cutie that I often saw when I was taking my master’s degree also teaches in my university! We even teach in the same department! I never talked to him before but when he saw me in the lecturer’s room a couple of days ago (to be exact, at the date 9-9-09), he came to me and we had a casual chat. God, I really dig your plan. I really do *grin widely*.

Other sweet things that happened this week:
-A fellow editor gave me a copy of One Hundred Years of Solitude. Thank you, mas Ronny *waves in joy* I cannot wait to read it. It means I have to finish that draggy The Black Book first. Meh.
-I have tasted J. Co’s Jackfruit Cino. It is good, I tell you. The combination of the coffee and jackfruit is right. I lurv lurv jackfruit, yet it’s not the kind of drink that I wanna take every week.
-Watched Debu’s performance at Mal Serpong. They’re great when playing live, trust me. You just feel entertained and spiritually inspired at the same time.
-I am reading Tintin again and fall in love with the comic again. Please please release the film soon. I wanna see Jamie Bell!
-Blitz Teras Kota has the coolest toilet door ever:

I will start teaching next week, and boy, how nervous I am! I have some experience teaching high school and elementary kids, but teaching in university? It is a completely new thing for me, so I don't know what to expect. Hopefully, everything will go well. Let's we all say amen for that.

And ... good news coming my way! Besides Writing 3, English 1 and English Proficiency, I am gonna teach Literary Criticism! I am sooo excited because that's what I always want to teach! *bouncy* However, I got so many materials to catch up. I will be teaching Feminist critics, Gay and Lesbian theory (so me, eh?) and postcolonialism. I am familiar with those three topics, yet I also have to study other theories that are not in my field of specialty. Let me name them: Marxism, New Historicism and Stylistics O_o. I was like, what what? I never got them in my college days! I knew some of the ideas, but it's truly not enough. Well, there are many things to read and to browse, methinks.

About the earthquake, I didn't feel it all. I was taking a nap at that time. All my prayers to all the victims.

Wow, I just noticed that I have been very busy in the last few days! I had a meeting discussing new term last Wednesday. I met my colleague lecturers and basically talked about what we’re going to do in this new term. Was I nervous? Of course :I being in a new environment always makes me panicky! But the most important thing is to handle the panic, and I think I did quite well in that. After that, I had lecturer training on Friday and Saturday. It was exhausting, since it was held from morning until evening. And I was fasting so it drained me out -_-. Yet I must say the training has been very helpful. I got tips how to handle students, how to teach effectively and other stuffs related with teaching at university.
The university where I am going to teach is very very high-tech. Everything is computerized, and I think they have used the technology in a right way, to help people. But inspite of the facility in my new environment, I still miss my Alma Mater . My campus has these old buildings, but that’s what makes it memorable and it has a special place in my heart (for six years, it’s been my second home!). It is still in my mind when I had a class in building 5 and took a look outside, I could see a squirrel eating and leaves falling. It’s a simple scenery but it’s unforgettable. I also miss my lecturers, the librarians, the guys at photocopy centre, the sellers at food stalls, the big trees, everything about my campus. I really really wish I could go back there one day, as a lecturer. Say amen?

Last week I also had a fasting-break together with my college friends. It was uber fun and thank you, Sindro, for treating us all :D. I am glad I have all of you, girls and guys. It’s a perfect bliss to see we all grow into (hopefully) pretty pretty butterflies. Keep on flying, my beloved! *hugs*
Oh, during the meet-up, we also had this session of speedy chat. To some friends, we shared updates about our lives. Two people asked about my crush-on and I found great difficulty in talking about him :I Not because I didn’t want to talk about it, but it’s hard to find words that could really describe my feelings. This is an indication of how truly serious my feeling to him ... Hah, no matter what happens, my boy, I will always wish for your happiness.

Okay, stop there.

Hooray! I finally got some new shirts to teach (and they’re cheap :) hail Matahari department store). Next, I still have to find trousers in black and dark blue. I try to find clothes that are not too formal but still look sharp and neat enough to teach. I don’t feel really comfortable in formal clothes, FYI. Jeans and shirts are more my thing. My mom also told me to find shoes with heels, which are not my thing as well! But well, I think I have to buy them in order to look a bit more sophisticated. I need to look at The Horrors, they can dress sharply and neatly but at the same time, look edgy.

One more thing, my sis and I are planning to go to a certain country (famous for its mint tea :D). Right now we’re going to find infos about expenses, hotels and stuffs. Ooh, I am excited! It gives me more reason to diligently save money!

Ohhhkay, I have been quite mellow in the last two days. But I will try to stand up tall and believe that God has another scheme for me in relationship-wise. See the glass as half-full, Ayu. You must.

The illustrator that I used to work with just knew that I have resigned from the publishing company and she sent me a very sweet text message. She basically said it’s been fun working with me. Oh wait, I am the one who should have said that, sweetheart! I feel really grateful for having a chance to work with someone as talented as you. Reading her message truly touches my heart. Knowing that someone is happy working with you is a sweet little bliss :).

Finally I watched G.I. Joe. I used to read the comics when I was a kid, so I was curious to know hot the film would be. It was ... okay, not my favourite genre though. Joseph Gordon Levitt as Cobra Commander? Too tiny and cute >.<. Sienna as Baroness? Too perfect! The characters in the film are a bit different with the ones in the comics. The changes are not really vital, methinks. All in all, a very summer film.

Moving on to music scene, one of my fav bands The Bravery will release their new album this November. I am as excited as hell! I like their two previous albums so I hope this new one won’t disappoint me either. And they’re working with MIA producer? I wonder how the songs will sound like!
And whoopsie, let’s see the boys’ latest look. 4 years surely have brought many changes!

I always want to have white jeans since I am a huge fan of Manics, and it seems that many musicians wear them too, from Hotel (The Kills) to Mr. John Conway (The Bravery). I must have the skinny ones *writing it into my shopping list*. Moving on to Sam Endicott ... I am not sure whether I like his current hairdo or not. There’s something kinda weird with his bangs. Although it’s better than his mohawk four years ago teehee. And do I see a red flower on your jacket? A new trend? While Dirt has left behind his make-up days. He looks much more macho with the white suit. See, white is the new black! And Michael Zakarin, dearest Michael. Red jeans make you look shorter. Donate them to the museum. Never touch them again. Oh, two thumbs up for shaving away the facial hair! Meanwhile, Ant is fine. Although I won’t say he looks special. But all in all, I dig the fact that they throw away those leather jackets :). They look classier now.

And since when I become a fashion critic? Hah.

There is this girl who has been admiring this boy for more than 5 years. And recently, she just knew that this boy made something for him. It took her two years to finally realize that.



God must have another plan for the girl, I guess.

Yesterday, I was celebrating the independence day by watching The All American Rejects. For those of you who don’t know them, they’re a pop-rock band from America. I like their songs but I wasn’t their huge fan. Yet after watching their gig last nite, I have to be their HUGE fan because they were so awesome onstage! I thank God I finally could see their performance since I was hesitating before. But then, thank you sis for lending me the money to buy tickets (psst, she even treated me dinner at Panini House FX!)! Last nite was one of the best nites I have experienced this year :). And thank you AAR, for cheering me up since I had been quite down in the last few days!



Since August 17th is the independence day of Indonesia, we sang Indonesia Raya first before the show began. And surprise! When we were singing our national anthem, Tyson Ritter(the singer) came onstage waving our national flag and running around happily :D. He was wearing the t-shirt that supports Indonesia Unite movement, We Are Not Afraid. Tyson was just effin’ energetic, he spread the energy to the audience! After a 15-minute-jeda, the full band appeared onstage. The super cute Nick Wheeler (the guitarist) looked very neat with a white shirt and a black vest. Mike the guitarist with a new long hair, and Chris the drummer whom I could not see :D. And how about our lovely Mr. Ritter? He was bare-chested (with glitters over his body) and wearing this low rise red jeans xD! No wonder many girls screamed so loud when he was entering the stage.

Tyson was truly the star of the night. He was moving here and there (Tyson pecicilan!), shaking his body (Tyson Persik xD), dancing kecak, and crawling onstage (Tyson ngesot!)! During the last song, he was even climbing this pole beside the stage :D. My sis and I were really afraid if he fell down because the pole was so high and he was soooo madly energetic. Very attractive, no doubt at all. But the most important thing was he still could sing! Two thumbs up, kiddo! And Tyson even wrote this letter to us Indonesians and read it aloud. Basically, he gave us support to fight terrorism and told us that they are not afraid. He also kept on yelling merdeka (which means ‘freedom’) during the show :). I salute you boys, from the very bottom of my heart. Thank you for the letter, Tyson. It’s such an honour.

The gig was wayyyyy beyond my expectation. It was fantastic and I was entertained during the whole performance. Sadly, I didn’t have any proper picture since the bouncer didn’t allow us to bring a camera (weird, isn’t it?). My sis didn’t want to give him our camera because who would be responsible if it’s gone? So after a bit of argument, he only asked for the batteries. That incident was a bit annoying, yet the gig really really kicked ass I wasn’t pissed off anymore. Once again, thank you thank you so much The All American Rejects. Merdeka!

Ps: Damn this slashy mind, I was hoping for a bit of fan-service between Tyson and Nick. Oh well, don’t blame me entirely, Tyson once proposed Nick on telly :p! There was a slight fan-service though, when Tyson’s cheek mets Nick’s cheek and when Tyson licked Nick’s guitar XP.
Ps2: They played my favourite song Paper Heart. I was melteeeddddd.

( pictures from my cellphone )

Usually, I spend my Friday nights at home. Reading a novel, getting online, or watching boring programmes on telly. But my last Friday night was awesome, one of the best I’ve ever had! One of my best friends, Era, came from Surabaya, then in the afternoon we hung out at Yoan’s crib. We played with her niece, shared some gossips, and played cards with this marvelous pack of Starbucks’ cards! Playing with those cards really really made me drool. Anyhoo, after that, we went to Summarecon Mal Serpong to have some dinner and to enjoy the night. As I often said, it’s one of my favourite malls because it has a very friendly atmosphere and many great places to hang out. But I highly recommend ordering some drinks and sitting at the city walk. If you’re lucky, a band will perform to accompany you :). Okay, enough from me promoting the mall. Let me share some pics!

( Fun fun fun )

Tomorrow is the Independence Day, and I will celebrate it by watching The All American Rejects. I hope I will have a blast :).

And do mock me. I haven’t seen Up, Public Enemy, The Half Blood Prince, and G.I. Joe! But I just watched Lost in Austen! A very fan-girlish film and I am highly entertained :). Basically, it’s about a girl switching place with Elizabeth Bennet from Pride and Prejudice. Don’t ask how, you won’t find the answer in the film! And yes, Amanda Price meets Mr. Darcy, and falls in love and such. There are many scenes sooo funny, yet if you haven’t read Pride and Prejudice, you won’t get the joke. A must see for all Austen’s fans!

I fall in love with Coffin Joe again! I have been listening to The Horrors’ Primary Colours, and it reminds me how cute Joe is *sigh*. My sis said that with his current hair colour he looks like Leonardo Di Caprio, grmbl. I prefer Joe with black hair but I think he ‘s still cute with a lighter tone of hair. So, now please leave me while I am staring at the cuteness of Mr. Joseph Spurgeon (yes, that’s his real name).

Okay, don’t leave me yet. Come back, please.

The university hasn’t called me back. The new term begins on September and I think we should talk about curriculum and stuffs, rite? But they haven’t contacted me again. I wonder when they will do that. I can’t wait to know what subjects I am going to teach.

And hell, it's been a useless post xD.

Last nite, we were taken to somewhere only Mew knows. Mew’s gig was amazing. For those of you who have heard Mew’s music, you must agree with me that their music is very unique. They really have their own sound that distinguishes them from other bands. That’s what makes this Danish band so special. Their performance was brilliant. It’s like a journey into another world, a midsummer night’s dream that had gone away as soon as Mew got off from the stage. The visual behind them completed the fairy-tale atmosphere, a collection of videos of weird creatures made by Jonas himself. Mew completely took my breath away. Jonas, the vocalist, didn’t talk and move much, but the crowd was hypnotized by his voice. A heavenly voice, for sure. And I am happy that they played my favourite song, Snow Brigade. All in all, Mew’s gig was super awesome. It might seem like a dream, but this is surely an unforgettable dream.

Besides Mew, I also got a chance to see performances from The Monophones (very 70’s yet quite good), Tika and The Dissidents (with a cute guitarist, ahem), Zeke and The Popo (who performed This Mighty Love, a favourite song by someone who has a special place in my heart *sighs*), and Slank! I often saw Slank’s performance on telly, but seeing them live, I was in awe! Kaka was full of energy and I could really feel that he spread the energy to the audience. They’re great, really great, I understand why so many people worship the band.

This festival was held in three days, and there were other international acts like Vertical Horizon, Melee, and Third Eye Blind. But since I am not really into those other bands, I decided only to attend the third day of the festival. Compared to a dance festival I attended on 2005, I was more into the crowd of Java Rockin’ Land because like me, most of them were rock music fans, I believe. The weather was okay, and since the location of Java Rockin’ Land was near the beach, the wind was blowing comfortingly. One of the stages was even very very close to the sea. When the sunset came, it was really romantic.
So, thank you, Mr. Gontha, for holding this rockin’ festival! Next year should be more fantastic than this, perhaps inviting Manic Street Preachers, Interpol, The Killers or Franz Ferdinand :D? And, yes, through this festival, we have shown to the world that we’re not afraid :).

( pictures from Java Rockin’ Land )

I met someone in Goodreads and since I think he got a nice bookshelf, I approved his request. Then he added me on Facebook, that was fine. But then he kept commenting on every status that I wrote. At first, I was being polite and giving responds. But then he sent me messages, asking details about my life! Dude, I don't even know you in real life and you're stepping into my personal life. Back off. Grmbl, it really sucks. Should I pay him no attention or erase him from my friend list? What do you think?

Oh, I am reading The Tenant of Wildfell Hall by Anne Bronte, which is really good. Then I googled the adaptation and found that Rupert Graves and Toby Stephens play in it :D. I want to watch it so bad!


dothestrand, is Mr. Graves so gorgeous?

One of my dreams in life is to teach literature at the university. And thank God, he has opened the door for me. I am accepted as one of the literature lecturers in a university in Jakarta! I was kinda pessismistic when they interviewed me since I got no experience in teaching at universities, but thankfully, I got in :D. I still don’t know what subjects that I am going to teach. I hope it’s either literary critics or film studies or popular culture. I am so excited about this, wish me luck, LJ-friends!

Have finished Emma and it means I have read six major novel of Miss Austen. I can understand why many people love her works, but I must say they’re not really my cup of tea. It’s been an interesting literary experience though.